My Kids, The Gospel

My kids and their innocent view on life sure make going through these trials so much easier! Everytime I cry Kade says "Mom, are you worried about Grandma?" And then he tells me "It's OK, she's in Heaven!" And I know he's right. She in Heaven. She has no more pain, she's happier than ever, she's serving the Lord, and she's with her loved ones. It is OK. 

But even though we understand the Plan of Salvation it doesn't seem to make the pain go away that easily. I think it's, as Brad put it the other night, because life here isn't as enjoyable without them in it. Celebrating holidays and birthdays are hard, thinking of gifts to give for Christmas is hard, getting good news and wanting to share it is hard, realizing all the milestones we won't be able to share with her is hard, seeing my sweet Father-in-law struggle with the loss of his precious companion is hard.

BUT,

I know she is still with us.

I've been thinking of the last verse of the song "If the Savior Stood Beside Me" a lot lately. It says:

"He is always near me, though I do not see Him there,

and because He loves me dearly, I am in His watchful care.

So I'll be the Kind of person that I know I'd like to be

if I could see the Savior standing nigh, watching over me."

and in a non-sacrilegious way I think of my mother-in-law and I think:

She is always near me, though I do not see her there,

and because she loves me dearly, I am in her watchful care.

 I know she is watching over her husband, her children, and her grandchildren right now. That is even more evident to me now after witnessing what a miraculous recovery Brad's sister Kimber has had after the accident. I'm sure she is busy working in the spirit world, but I also really believe that she takes time to look after her family that is still on earth.

Here is the video of the grand-kids singing Grandma's Medley: