Breath of Heaven

 Today was a little exhausting. I taught the co op class. I’m with Luke’s class so there are eight six and seven year olds and they don’t obey me or the other teachers very well. And obviously we’re not there to be their parent but at the same time we do have rules for them to follow. Anyway it was a tiring morning with them and my to-do list at home is overflowing so I was just overwhelmed today. Tonight I realized I had forgotten to pick up a grocery order so I went back out after dinner and had a moment by myself out in the dark, cold night in my car. I turned on calming Christmas music and my favorite song, ‘Breath of Heaven’ came on. I love the lyrics and the perspective we get of Mary and how she must have felt. Her world was turned upside down and I’m sure no one believed she had a miraculous conception. She probably didn’t feel worthy for the task. She probably felt overwhelmed and worried. But she went forward anyway, asking for help. 

Breath of Heaven, hold me together, pour over me your holiness, for you are holy. Help me be strong. Help me be. Help me.

Being a mother is hard. Homeschooling my kids is hard. Creating a peaceful, organized home is hard. Trying to do it all is impossible. Obviously what I’m experiencing pales in comparison to what Mary went through but it still teaches me a lesson. I have help. Help to know what really needs my attention. Help to get up each morning and try again. Help to find joy every day and live with gratitude.

This picture definitely wasn’t reality today but they did sit this still for a few moments! We learned about London England today and had a little tea party!