Journals

Life is a little bit difficult at times and I've learned that I worry and get stressed about things a lot. As I was having a 'worrying' moment yesterday I had the thought to read through my old journals. I started in the year 2000 when I was in high school and I've read through 2005 so far. I've always been pretty consistent at writing in my journals so it was a lot to read! I laughed at myself a lot and came to realize even more that I allow myself to worry about the future more than I should! It was funny to read about me worrying if I'd find a good man to marry and what our future would be like and if we'd be happy. Looking back now over the past 16 years, life has turned out really well! Better than I could have imagined at that time I'm sure. So why was I so worried?
In fact, I really shouldn't worry about the future at all, should I? In the scriptures we read that we should "take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof." (Matthew 6:34). So worrying and trying to understand what the future holds doesn't help me. I realized today that I need to just focus on each day and let the worrying go. If I do the simple little things each day that I know I need to do i.e. prayers, scripture study, quality time with my kids and husband, and a goal to love God and others, everything will be great. Everything will probably be better than I can now imagine.
Well, that was longer and cheesier than I expected, but it's been on my mind all day. I really am grateful for the detailed journals that I've kept because they are really helpful to me now. I love the chance to reflect and remember.

While I was busy reading about my high school and college years, Tenley was busy working! I pulled out a kindergarten workbook for her today so she could practice writing her numbers. She started on the number 1 and each number has two worksheets to go along with it. She ended up working all the way to number 15! When she was done she said, "Phew! I feel a lot smarter now!" And I'm sure she is. While I was making dinner she decided to work on some more pages and it inspired Kade to as well! Can't every day be this awesome?!

After dinner we called their cousin J.T. to sing to him for his birthday. J.T. just turned 6 and his older sister Elly is Kade's age. The four of them chatted together about all sorts of things for several minutes. It was super adorable!